in myy ageee bracket. 16 to like..25?

I can't depend on you,you,or you,or you. I thought Y0U, were an exception but you quickly reminded me you're not the one. Whether you want to be or not. Part of me still believes though. I'm trying to find a balance, with these personal relationships and I'm realizing..its not an option. I've seen people I love! fall the fuck apart that I thought never could,and the shits a trip. Had some people I thought would always make an effort,let me the fuck down. Makes me..lose faith in everything you want me to believe in. Especially people! The most flawed,fuckass entity on this planet. I love yall.. Making you all smile is my passion. Your laughter is beautiful.. But that's where it ends..depend on none but,you. You wouldn't let you downnn,now would you? Haa!
People(k) like I have no choice. Like 3 people make me smile now-a-days. I'm sorry some of you can't be that,at the moment,or I can't be that for youuu.. Please don't take it personallllllll..

"Barely trust'em,they're all puppets,love is nothin',scared of success.."

post script!

April 7thhhh,
Rock the Bells,lineup released(:

I'll be there this year..who wants a spot in the car..? Better call it now! This yearss gonna be,

i Paid my Dues todayy..did youu?

just strolling.
MURS battle.
living LEGENDS.
crooked i. joe budden.
atmosphere.
"i have to pee,dear!"

and now..

the moment we've been waiting for is here.

I'm starting to realize I have less and less control over the occurrences in my life. Day to day shit is becoming more and more of a hassle then it really has to be, and those held responsible will be escorted out in an orderly fashion. That, being one of the only things I have control over of course. Don't take it incorrectly either. I have plenty to be happy about. Paid Dues is this coming Saturday,(: I have a pretty set plan for my future. && A pair of twin sisters born
March 10th at 11:53pm. Khloe and Kayla. They're beautiful.

So please don't misinterpret this as anger,or any of that jazz. I'm justt STRESSED,the fuck outt. &&i have ZERo control over most of it. All I can and WILL,do is erase you catalyst of the bullshittt,and keep it pushin'. Put a smile on, take whats coming, and bid most of you mothaf*ckas adieu. &&for that i apologize. later daysssssss,"loved" ones.

" There's gon' be some stuff you gon' see
that's gon' make it hard to smile in the future.
But through whatever you see,
through all the rain and the pain,
you gotta keep your sense of humor.
You gotta be able to smile through all this bullshit.
Remember that."


S.L.- My 1st Song by Jay-Z from The Black Album (Top 10 rap albums ever. Say otherwise..i dare you.)

Paid Dues- 3 daysss!

i wanna be sedated.

I can not,no,will not tolerate the bullshit reality shovels. So much of what I encounter on the daily,can't be what life is supposed to regard. Take me to a place where love is like breathing and t r u s t,is as simple as pie. A place where past encounters don't correlate directly with forthcoming desires,and a ..dumb, choice can be washed away with a sincere heart.. A spot where honesty is a virtue,and patience.. won't be necessary. Just come with your wants. Where requests to be with the one you need are a vehement yes. Never anything negative. Somewhere with a hungry,Marshall Mathers, a healthy Big L, and a deceased Akon. Take me somewhere.. Just not here.

I think I've got the trick!
"take two of these and call me in the morning...cause lifes bornin"

June 18th.

well hello there,guys. Whats new kangaroos? Me? Nothing really. Just enjoying these last 3 months before I'm no longer a highschool student. Its an intersting feeling. A part of me is almost..afraid? to step out of my comfort zone. Where I've grown a lot and conducted my social life for the most part. But at the same time, I'm ready to leave. I love learning. I need to be in a place where I'm in control of what i want to know,and shit isnt so set in stone. The A-G requiremnts can blow me. I'm ready to walk across that stage and pack my shit in suitcases.. The 818 is..death. Poisen even, to the average teen. I need to leave. Arizona is hot, and Santa Barbra is b e a u t i f u l. Either way though..

it's not the valley.

p.s.

everyone loves sunny days,but tell me,can you stand the rain?

smile.it'll be okay.iloveyou.mda.

coachella..I'm not going,sadly. BUT! instead. Lakers playoffs and Dodgers opening day..bang!

Paid Dues,though? 22 days.

s.l.- Marry Me by MURS! from Sweet Lord.